Words seep out of my head, hanging, lost, in the dark hours as I lie awake in the small hours feeding my teething, poorly, un-sleep-trained baby. They never make it to the written form anymore.
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I no longer count my sleep in how many unbroken hours I get but in how many extra fifteen minute intervals of sleep I can accrue.
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Matthew has returned from another trip to the US, jetlagged as always. He will have trouble staying awake for the next couple of days.
I am chronically sleep deprived. I too will have trouble staying awake for the next couple of days and possibly the next couple of years after that.
But a trip is unavoidable. So we get in the car and we assess who is best to drive by who is less likely to kill us all as a result of tiredness-related driver error.
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Sometimes I stand in the kitchen and I have no memory of what I am doing, and often, no memory of how I got there.
Sometimes I wonder if I have actually been asleep standing up.
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So much is going on but there is no time to blog it. I only wish it was because I was spending so much time asleep. Ugh.
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Ugh indeed.
So which of you drove?
Do you have someone who can come over to watch the boys for a bit now and then so you can nap? I know it’s hard with the baby, but maybe he can nurse while you lie down with him? Hope you get some much needed rest soon and everyone feels better.
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Matthew.
No need now. The baby was so poorly – and so awake – two nights ago with another cold that he slept all night last night. I had seven hours sleep and so today I’m ready to take on the world.
Yeah baby!