Here are some of the most important things I would like you to know about me:
1. The single most important thing I want you to know about me is that I love you totally and utterly and that I think you are already lovely children who will become wonderful, kind-hearted adults. The world can never have too many of those.
When I am old and I look back on my life, I still think the most important thing I will have done is to make you (you have no idea how ridiculously proud I am of myself when I look at you!) and then guide you to become those wonderful, kind-hearted adults. Then my work will be done because so much else that is good in life stems from that. Even if you are poor, poorly, rich, popular or whatever you turn out to be, if you are kind-hearted you will be successful in life.
2. I also want you to know that I am a big softie. Oh wait, you already know that. When we watch a film, you never see the ending because you all turn to me to see if I am crying.
Yes I am.
Even if the movie is not sad.
A couple of you have inherited my soft side and I hope you will never see that as a weakness but as an opportunity to show empathy to other living things. For me, one of the great pleasures in life has been caring about things: my great passion (aside from my own family) is trying to make a difference: living lightly on this Earth, being careful to buy products that don’t harm other living creatures, supporting charities to reduce poverty and raising money for the disease that affects our family.
3. I have done lots of exciting – and also some slightly reckless – things in my life, travelled a bit, tried new things and now I’ve done them I don’t have any urge to do most of them again. If you have to do the same, I will hold my breath in fear but I will understand. Life is for living but at the same time remember the words my grandma used to say – ‘everything in moderation’. And I hope that if you get into trouble, if you run out of money, if you are stranded, if you have done something stupid, if you have difficult questions you will be able to turn to me. I will be here. I will understand. I will try not to get angry!
4. I have a temper and I shout. I’m not proud of this. I’m even less proud to admit that before I had you all, I was (and still am underneath) quite a mellow person. I am working on this bit of me harder than I would like to admit publicly but I want you to know that I don’t think it is OK for me to get so annoyed and irritable.
5. I’m a perfectionist. If you have inherited that from me, I’m sorry. I’m ambitious, a do-er, a list-maker. I am a Type-A. I know, I hate me too. But I get a lot done – I raise four children, run a small business and manage to have time for hugs everyday. There are worse things to be. I expect a lot from me but the downside of that is that I expect a lot from you too. I expect you to have good manners, to be hardworking, honest, reliable and respectful. We’ll get there: I have faith and you have good genes.
Learn to relax a little too though. I’ve learnt that now. Life is short, I try to enjoy every day. And the only way to do that is to stop, be mindful and appreciate the moment. I know that sounds a bit New-Age but there is no point rushing through life only to get to the end and realise you didn’t stop and enjoy it along the way.
And if you got the depression gene, all I can say is I’m sorry. And please make sure you look after yourself.
6. I love music. I’m a good pianist and not bad at singing. I’m a bit scarily clever. I’m modest though (except today, writing this!), so you won’t know much about what I’m good at. I don’t like fashion. I don’t like heights. I’m not a very inspired cook but I might be, one day. Once I had a job and got dressed up every morning and I loved that. Now I stay at home with you and work from home and I love that too but one day I will get to go back to work and I look forward to you seeing that side of me. I’m shy. I’m a homebody. I love writing, reading, taking great photographs and being a bit geeky with internet-type stuff; these are the things that make me tick and make me more than just your mother.
So that’s me. It was six things in the end. But always, always, number one is the most important.
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