motherhood in real-time

From the category archives:

Post-Partum Depression

Seven months pregnant: the black dog

January 10, 2008

I catch sight of two dark streaks on the car window only to realise with horror that they are big black stripes under my eyes. As I peer more closely at myself, I realise how bloated I look by this pregnancy, how tired, fed-up. Shocked by what I see, I wonder if I scare animals [...]

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Maternal depression, irritability and guilt

August 13, 2006

I have been feeling increasingly sad, low and irritable recently. I haven’t had more than a few nights’ decent sleep in seven months so I’m fairly sure that is at the base of all this. I’ve been reading a lot about mild, persistent chronic depression. I’ve been reading a lot about maternal depression and the [...]

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Family life

August 1, 2006

With a newborn in the house and two pre-schoolers thrown in on top, time is at a premium. Add in school holidays and ‘me’ time becomes almost non-existent. I have been blogging at one site or another for nearly two years now. My tagline for most of that time should have been “WATCH ME FALL [...]

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Ten minutes

June 14, 2006

So I’ve decided to stop wallowing in self-pity and to get on with Life. I chose this path, right? So I should just suck it up and get on with it. And the baby? Oh, well I’m going to pop him in the cot in the corner and leave him to work out how to [...]

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Depression, post-partum depression or something alot like it

June 5, 2006

As you will have noticed I have stopped posting very frequently. The reasons for this are: 1) I have no time to myself 2) I usually have a baby in my arms (this makes me both happy – I have a baby – and unhappy – he wants carrying pretty much all the time) 3) [...]

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Apparently we have a black dog in the family and it has been here some time

March 14, 2006

The babe and I had our eight week post-natal check yesterday. I’m tired but I have enjoyed the last eight weeks, enjoyed getting to know my new baby. I’m definitely in love. So it was something of a surprise when the health visitor assessed my Edinburgh Test and declared me on the borderline of suffering [...]

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