pregnancy

Seven weeks pregnant. Or possibly eight weeks pregnant. (Can you tell this is my fourth baby?)

This is what is standing between me and this And when I tell you I am eating a cake a day, I am not kidding (which is why I make two at a time.) The cake stops me throwing up. It gives me some quality of life because I am at last off the sofa. [...]

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Holding on to that thought

The countryside is putrifying, my over-zealous nose tells me as I squelch uneasily through recently flooded land. Returning home, the wet dog fares no better: you stink, I say, as a rub her dry and deftly avoid throwing up directly on her. Getting good at this, I think with a sort of inverse pride. I [...]

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Six weeks pregnant

I was given the all-clear at the hospital which has taken a fecking huge great weight off my mind. ******** A pregnant mother once wrote on Mumsnet (my favourite chat room): if you didn’t know you were pregnant, you’d think you were dying. I’m really sick. I have struggled through a headache from hell – [...]

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Five weeks pregnant

Tomorrow I am off to the hospital to have investigations done on my breast. The invitation letter is peppered with phrases such as ‘these procedures may take some time’ and ‘bring a friend for companionship and support’. Nothing in the letter makes me feel happy about going. As they are doing the preliminary ultrasound I [...]

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When feeling nauseous is a good thing

I’ve been in bed for the last two days. I’ve been having severe stomach cramps and lower back pain, so unpleasant that this morning they woke me at 3am and I was unable to get back to sleep. More worryingly, I no longer feel nauseous. Instead I just feel tired and low. So now I [...]

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I’m pregnant!

It is with a pounding heart that I realise the test I took an hour earlier is not actually negative after all. I feel my legs start to shake. I scan the packet for details. Discard the test after ten minutes as results may not be accurate it says. A reprieve. Although we planned on [...]

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